I did take the initiative, many times, but it always seemed like it's in vain.
I know I shouldn't put the blame on others but me who was stupid.
I always wanted to give up, don't do anything anymore but it's just too hard.
Maybe it's time, it's the start of a new year!!
I SHALL!!!!!!
Cuz, it's always so disappointing . SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH

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